Expressing Myself

Happy, sad, angry, disappointed or jealous…

To be honest, I had never really let myself express much of these feelings. I tend to keep it all inside, no matter how hurt or sad I was. Or even happy to the sense I thought I could fly. I smiled or just kept my mouth shut. I didn’t want anyone to feel like I’m a burden to them, telling them how I really felt.

And lately I have.

How it feels like? It wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. My friend didn’t seem to mind and it was almost like she liked me better this way. I think I like myself this way better, too. It felt such a relieve to just blur everything out what was on my mind.

I just told her I was mad at her for not answering my message. When she said there were 12 other people who did.. I expressed my disappointment by saying “so my message wasn’t that important afterall”, where as she said: “of course it was, you were the first one I received.”..

Really, it feels so great. I was disappointed, but at the same time I was happy to know she somehow did care. And that was all I needed to know.


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    mikewalzman said,

    It’s funny how we can come up with these destructive thoughts is our head, only to find out there not true. In any relationship, i have found communication to be key. If I can’t communicate what’s going on with me, how is the other person supposed to know? I can also relate to not wanting to tell people what your going through. For me it was because I would think people thought I was weak and wouldn’t see my as this guy who had his shit together, but I know no that, that is all ego. Anyways im sure you get this a lot, but for only being 17, and already reflecting on your life like this is amazing, it will do you wonders.

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